I spent the past weekend in Nashville visiting Belmont’s new college of law and attending Steeplechase with some friends. And that was great, except for one asshole ambulance-chaser lawyer telling me I’d never get a job anywhere if I went to Belmont because “they’re not a respected school.” And also, according to him, Mercer isn’t that great a school either. I’m not sure what his problem with me was, but I seriously had to get away from him for a while, so I spent about an hour wandering around the grounds by myself.
Of course, as usual when I am under tremendous stress, I spent the drive back from Nashville and yesterday evening warding off anxiety attacks. I’m so ready to have a set plan for what I am going to do and where I am going to be, and I can’t wait to make a firm decision and start moving forward.
Mercer is, of course, a great law school, but I feel so weird about going that far away from all my family and friends…and I also worry because Macon is such a nasty town. This will be Belmont’s charter class, but Nashville is a very short and nice drive from my hometown and so many of my friends live there. So there are pros and cons to both schools. But I feel like if I am accepted at Belmont, that’s where I should attend. I’m praying really hard about what is the best decision for me. Of course, the biggest problem to attending Mercer would be finding a living situation. Norma Jean, my Doberman Pinscher, is presenting a huge problem for me because I can’t find an apartment complex that will rent to me if I bring her to live with me. And in Macon, all the homes I’ve found for rent are in really shady parts of town. My mother says that if I decide to go to Mercer, Norma could live with her. I appreciate that offer, but the truth is (and I know this sounds completely neurotic) I would miss my baby girl more than anything else! I just can’t imagine leaving her behind. :( And I feel that if I left her here and went to school in Macon, I wouldn’t last down there very long because of how much I would be missing her.
Hello, Anxiety. It’s been a while…